Fatima. Lucia. Silence of Lucia
On February 3, 1946, Father Hubert Jongen, a Dutch Montfort Father, had along talk with Sister Lucy.
Father Jongen (FJ): Are you absolutely sure that the Angel appeared to you?
FJ: The total silence of you three children concerning these apparitions prevents many from giving them credence.
FJ: To whom then did you reveal the apparitions?
FJ: Did you follow his advice?
FJ: What did he say?
FJ: Why did you not speak to anyone about the Angel at the time of the apparitions?
FJ: That is natural, but the priest who interviewed you recently on the matter finds it hard to explain the fact that three children so young could have kept a secret for so long.
FJ: What do you mean?
FJ: That was a good reason for not divulging the apparitions but only for a while. Why were they not made known before 1936?
FJ: When did you receive permission from Heaven, as you say in your Memoirs, to reveal the Secret?
FJ: Did you tell your confessor about it?
FJ: What did he say?
FJ: It is regretful that the Secret was not published before the war, for then Our Lady’s prediction would have had more value. Why did you not make it known before?
FJ: To whom else did you reveal the Secret before the war?
FJ: Did you reveal everything without exception?
FJ: Did you give only the general sense of what Our Lady told you, or did you quote Her words literally?
FJ: Are you sure you kept everything in your memory?
FJ: Were the words of the Secret revealed in the same order they were communicated to you?
From the Third Memoir (1941-08-31)
8. Lucia Explains her Silence
It may be, Your Excellency, that some people think that I should have made known all this some time ago, because they consider that it would have been twice as valuable years before hand. This would have been the case, if God had willed to present me to the world as a prophetess. But I believe God had no such intention, when He made known these things to me. If that had been the case, I think that in 1917, when He ordered me to keep silent, and this order was confirmed by those who represented Him, He would on the contrary, have ordered me to speak.
I consider then, Your Excellency, that God willed only to make use of me to remind the world that it is necessary to avoid sin, and to make reparation to an offended God, by means of prayer and penance. Where could I have hidden myself in order to escape from innumerable questions they would have asked me about such matters? Even now I am afraid, just thinking of what lies a head of me! And I must confess that my repugnance in making this known is so great that, although I have before me the letter in which Your Excellency orders me to write everything else that I can remember, and I feel convinced that this is indeed the hour that God has chosen for my doing this, I still hesitate and experience a real inner conflict, not knowing whether to give you what I have written, or to burn it. As yet I do not know what will be the outcome of the struggle. It will be as God wills.
For me keeping silent has been a great grace. What would have happened had I described hell? Being unable to find words which exactly express the reality- for what I say is nothing and gives only a feeble idea of it all. I would therefore had said, now one thing, now another, wanting to explain but not succeeding in doing so. I might thus perhaps have caused such a confusion of ideas as even to spoil, who knows, the work of God. For this reason, I give thanks to the Lord, and I know that He does all things well. God usually accompanies His revelations with an intimate and detailed understanding of their significance. But I do not venture to speak of this matter, for fear of being led astray, as can all to easily happen, by my own imagination. Jacinta seemed to have this understanding to quite a remarkable degree.